ok why does life have to be so confusing?? it seems like here lately things are just so hard for me to understand!!! like i guess where im growing up and realizing things and its just so hard because my moms not here and i just always imagined my mom being here to help me through.....and like for my wedding she  wont be here....i dont know why im thinking about this and letting it get to me its just when im alone i think about that kind of stuff..... i miss her so much..... its been 5 years since she died and im just now getting around to looking at pictures that we took when we went to the beach 3 months before she died.. i think its because thats the last time i seen her and thats the way i remembered her....i remember her never wanting to wear her wig and she never cared that she didnt have hair... she just always said that its quicker to get ready.... i dont know why im even talking about this i guess it kinda helps?? i dont know?? but i guess im gonna go......!!

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WOW!!! it has been a really long time since i have been on here.... the last time i was on here me and donald were still together.....and thats been a couple months....... oh well alot has changed, ive got a new job... well not really a new job, its the same job just in a different location.. its in ashland so that means i have to leave earlier than normal but its more money and a big promotion.... so thats good.... well thats really all i know to talk about.....so im gonna go.......

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well i have to be at work at 2:30 and ive been bored outta my mind since ive been up, im not use to having time during the day to do whatever i want...... hahaha...i know im only 19 and i should have all kinds of things i could be doing but all my friends are working or at school and donalds sleeping he'll probaly wake up as im leaving for work, thats the way it always is, and when i get home he will already be gone to work and i wont see him til the next day if i even get to at all....oh well i guess thats what happens when you grow up, but i guess im kind of glad to be growing up and to be doing my own thing...hahaha oh well i really have no idea what im talking about here im just blabbing hoping time will go by...hahhaah ok well im gonna go...later....

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ok so i now live a boring life.....donald is working out of town now.....he finally got called out to work , which he has been waiting for that to happen for a while now......so im happy for him but i dont really have anything to do now, because i was use to getting out of work around 6 and us doing something but now i dont know what to do, all my friends work til late or have other things to do..... but this week i have a full schedule i work everyday this week until friday...and on top of that im in the process of moving into my apartment, and i can only move so much in my little car, i know plenty of people that have trucks but their working when im not and when im working their free...haha so im hoping by friday i will have everything in my apartment...... but thats all for now im gonna go tan and get something to eat im starving.....later...

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ok havent been on here in a while......

things are going as good as they possibly could i guess???

i got a new tattoo, its in memory of my mom......

well thats all i have for now.....later

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